thursdays thoughts

here’s the truth:

i failed last year..  but… it’s a new year so,  here we go.

1- THIS. i can’t get enough. replay. i think despite the totally annoying repetition- there are lines of sheer brilliance that just, speak to me. how well do you know me? can you pick out my favorite line? i’ll tell you at the end.

2- i didn’t share my littles report card with him. does that make me bad? i’m totally struggling with it. pretty much, it says he’s a great kid. i tell him that all the time. his teacher does a wonderful job of making each child feel special, and despite his pushing my buttons, he’s a wonderful, kind, helpful kid at school. (except for art and p.e  where he apparently is only ok, but whatever.) i just don’t want him to get a big head and think he is perfect in school, because there is always work to do.always things to learn and places for improvement. hummmm.. yeah, i’m struggling with it.

3- the big moved to the basement, and suddenly.. i might actually like him. last year, with him, almost killed me off. but now he’s more… “here” if you will. it’s crazy because i made the decision to take him out of the “box”. you know the box of… kids should (insert societal dictated norm here)  you know be this..  have this gpa… this act score, so on and so forth. but i’m well just letting him be him. i can’t stress about him not conforming to fit in the box. can’t stress about college, or test or hell tomorrow for that matter. seems like i spent last year stressing about grades, and eligibility, and you know what.. i’m done with all that. hands washed of it. so what if he doesn’t go to….yale, or even CU for that matter. i finally just have to trust that it will all work out in the long run.he has to have some skin in the game, want it, not me wanting it for him. he does still have certain expectation he has to meet, and goals, and yes i still parent him.but i don’t stress, and he and i, well we do much better now.

4-James Corden… Carpool Karaoke. Have you watched? Oh well, I have. EVERY.SINGLE.ONE. <3 ( i might have just watched a few again)

5- and while i’m confessing things… at the sweet age of 40 i suddenly have bieber fever. yup. it’s confirmed.

6-so i started this blog on wednesday hoping to have it done by thursday… umm yeah, today is friday, oops. how about this.. today is actually monday, ummm yeah.. i gotta get my poop in a group.

7-  this weekend i binge watched the final season of parenthood.i.loved.it. i also bawled like a baby in like, every episode. so good.

8-confession, i still have not seen star wars. no really… that needs to happen. like pronto.

9-“the rest of the world was black and white, we were in screaming color”

~ “we were built to fall apart, then back together”

~ “when the sun came up you were looking at me”

10- i also love this. like LOVE. this kid is so freaking awesome.

11- these are my, “i’m going to vegas and you’re not flowers”…

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12- on sunday, i was putzing around the house.. picking up, but not really cleaning, and the little and his dad were messing around in the other room, i had my phone on kidzbop pandora.. the little loves to listen to music, you know, the standards… what ever is on the radio. all the sudden i hear THIS. i had to stop dead. no way kidzbop pandora would pick that song. score one for the hubby, way to introduce good music to the little. although i’m not sure how impressed he was, i was loving it.

13- this weekend…yeah. BRONCO’s. here we go!

~kml-w

Wayyyy to close to Christmas-

Here’s the truth:

1- It’s way to close to Christmas. I’ve wrapped nothing. I’ve not really kept track of what I’ve purchased. I’ve just not prepared.

2- Like clock work every year, in the car when THIS comes on, someone turns it off. Like, do they not know that Christams without the Carpenters is.. well, just not Christmas?

3- And I’m going to say this because if I don’t, well… it just wouldn’t be my proper Christmas Blog with out it. CHRISTMAS CARDS CAN NOT BECOME EXTINCT. No really. Of all the traditions that go by the wayside this can not be one. People, get out there and mail your freaking cards.

4- This year to entertaintain the little, my oh so daring husband, ventured off to ToysRus and got the “BIG BOOK OF TOYS” and then handed that, a pair of scissors, glue, and a spiral note book to the little and said make a book for Santa. Ummmmm, yeeeaaaahhhhh. Days and days of cutting and gluing and cutting and gluing and well you get it and the it was declared DONE. So the little runs out the mailbox, puts the spiral binder into the mail box and brushes his hands. Off to santa the big book of lukes wishes goes! So now I am trying to figure out how in the hell to get the book out of the mailbox, before the mail comes, with a 5 year old staring out of the window. And I look at the clock and the mail comes in like 4 mins. AHHHHHHHH. Thankfully his attention span is as small as his bladder, so he leave his perch to pee and I run like a mad, silent stalker woman to the mail box to retrieve the FREAKING book, dash upstairs throw it in a dresser drawer that has, oh wait, I’ve been looking of those shorts for like, ever.. anyway and dash back downstairs, like nothing happened as the toilet flushes and the mail lady pulls up. The long and short of this story is that now, when the little see’s something at walt-mart, he’s like “oh I’m getting that box of uglyiest little pet shops,” and I’m like, “oh are you”, and he’s like “yup, I put it in my book” FUUUUDDGGEEEEE he now thinks everything in that damn book will be delivered by santa. So looking into his eyes, to further perpetuate the “santa” lie I tell him, ” Dude, santa can’t bring you everything in your book or he won’t have room for other kids’ stuff. And remember, there are kids that don’t have as many things as you and santa is their only hope to get some cool things”. Not sure that sank in.

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5- For those who don’t know, my sister finally made it back to good ol’ colorado. Know what that means… the little wants to hang with her boys like, EVERY waking hour, of every free moment. The other night, he came home say, 3:30 ish. At 5:45 he said he was going to bed, and when I went to check on him at 6:15 he was out cold. Dear Nephews, thanks for tiring him out, because of you I was actually able to sit down and watch Interstellar. Start.TO.Finish. Here’s my shout out to tri-tip from HERE. Go get some, NOW.

6-WHY. oh why are spiced gum drops so freaking good. I can’t seem to leave the store with out a bag.

7- Because i bought the little dog, who’s time clock wakes me up at 5:45 I’ve been blessed with seeing the sunrise. Man, that’s one of those things people take for granted. For a moment the world is still and the sky is a medley of pink and orange and blue and it’s freaking awesome.

8-speaking of the little dog. my tree is skirtless. no really. i have a skirt, but every time i put it down, she grabs is, runs outside with it and makes it a bed.

9- dear walmart shopper. i love you. LIFE.CHANGING. no really, order on line, select a pick up time, drive up, they load groceries, you drive away. mind.blown.

10- this week well, you know, merry merry and all that stuff!

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~kml-w

friday’s findings-

here’s the truth

1-i haven’t turned the heat on in my house. currently, as i type this, i can not feel my fingers or my toes.

2- THIS. i love it. can’t get enough.go ahead, click on it. fall in love too.

3- people, getting up and getting dressed and putting on makeup and going to work, yeah, ummm the first week it was cool. 4 weeks in and i’m totally over it.

4- do i dare mention the broncos.. no really. totally mixed feelings.

5- THE WALKING DEAD.

6- So, i’ve been totally stressed lately. Like everything has stressed me out. money, kids, dogs, money, health. and i’ve realized that all those things are causing me not to sleep well, so now i’m cranky and stressed and tired. and i’ve been working hard and finding small things to really focus on. small things that normally i wouldn’t notice them, and seeing the good in the little things. i ran across THIS on Facebook. i’ve watched it 3 times now. i mean life is hard, but that life, i can’t imagine. so i think i’ve finally come to the realization that without the lows we would never, ever, recognize the highs. and something so small, as a piece of chocolate.. well that made all the difference in the world.  so i’m going to keep on looking for those small things…

7- i know i did not see SNOW in the forecast? snow. booooooooo.

8- i wanted to add a picture here. but yeah… ummm they want more money from me, the blog people that is, so they won’t let me upload any more data. jerks. so here’s this one again…

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9- i.am.not.ready.for.the.holidays.

10- this time next week…. my sister will be here. forever. boom.

thursday’s thoughts-

here’s the truth:

1- sometimes, i lose an entire day doing… who knows what. no seriously, i look and it’s 8:05 AM, and then when I look again it’s 2:40 and well, i’m just not sure what i’ve done.

2- the little is not about school. well, i mean he is once he gets there and gets established, but until then. he’s a ball of tears and “mom i’m going to miss you”. i let him skip last week to swim with his cousins from NY and now he wants to play “the hooky” every day. today though, he was excited to go, with limited “almost tears”.

3- THIS. who says life can’t be fun.

4-THIS too.

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6- so i plugged in “push” by matchbox 20 into my pandora… suddenly i’m in my 20s again. not sure if i feel rejuvenated by the music and the nostalgic sensation i have, or just FN old.

7-so this week i tweeked something in my neck/back and haven’t really been able to turn my neck for about 4 days. needless to say i’ve been bathing in icy/hot, but the worst part of the entire situation.. i can’t put my own hair in a pony. no really, i had to ask a wonderful lady dropping of a lax check to put my hair in a pony before i ripped it all out. and let me tell you i was hesitant to rip it all out considering i just spent good money getting it cut and colored.

8-so i’ve heard man in the mirror on the radio like, 10 times in the last week. is someone sending me a message? you know like, maybe, “if you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make the change. you gotta get it right while you got the time cuz when you close your heart then you close your. your mind, dance break, if you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and then make the change, whhhoo whooo whooo.” oh sorry. just had to add those since they are my FAV part of the song.

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10- this weekend…. fun. that’s really all that needs to happen. FUN.

10 things i’d like to say to my sweet, sweet high school freshman

dear sweet freshman,

you made it. somehow you emerged out of  middle school/jr high unscathed.

you’re still kind and loving. your life is drama free and your friends are real. they may not be the cool kids, they may not have a “name” for their clan of cronies, but what they are is true to you, to themselves and that is worth so much more than you will ever know.

i feel like i am sending you into the wild with the wolves.  into the great outdoors after being held in a small wildlife preserve. even though i know they are really only bitches armed with too much eyeliner and draped in hollister and american eagle from head to toe. i still feel like i have abandoned you in the wild with only a pony tail holder and a jansport backpack, so i think i should share a few things with you.

  1. the boys. yes, some of them look like actual men, but they are still boys. stay away from them. all of them. ok, no really it’s human nature to love the quarterback,but guess what, the second string soccer player with the 4.5 gpa who wears sport goggles and maybe isn’t on the “a” list of cool kids, well he’s kind and he makes you feel so good about yourself. so yeah, it’s human nature to like him too. remind your heart to listen to your head sometimes. boys will come and go. some one them know all the right things to say and sometimes they have no idea what to say, so if you like one, let them know. don’t hold out hoping they will notice you.
  2.  eyeliner. there is a right way to wear it, and a trashy way. when/if you ever want to wear it, let me know. i’d rather you wear it the right way. there is plenty of time in your 20’s to wear.. trashy.
  3. friends. if a friend stops hanging out with you to hang out with someone “cooler”let them. wave as they walk away, they were never really your friend to begin with. if you make a new friend who is… cooler.. invite your other friends to hang with you, if the new friend isn’t down, wave goodbye, she won’t ever be a real friend. always support your friends. go to their plays, soccer games, band performance.
  4. you.are.smart. yep. i said it. you are smart and guess what. that is ok. don’t hide it, don’t play it down. it’s awesome that you are smart.
  5. you.are.beautiful. with no make up, hair in a pony. you are beautiful with out trying. count your blessing. there are some people that need a little extra to make them beautiful. don’t ever let someone tell you that you aren’t. and don’t ever shuffle in front of a mirror wondering if you are beautiful enough because you are.
  6. it’s ok to be smart and beautiful. it’s also ok to be humble. it’s ok to be kind.   i can’t say it enough, humility is so important. know your worth and help other find theirs.
  7. the “cool” kids. they have a host of their own problems. so really, they aren’t as cool as they think they are. just find your people and be true to them. let the cool kids have each other and the drama that surrounds them.
  8. stay true to yourself. don’t forget who you are on the inside. a lot of things about you will change in high school, but that warm,kind,loving soul that you have. that will never change. don’t let the small troublesome things overwhelm you. give them a good cry and send them on their way. ps.it’s ok to cry about a boy, a friend, a grade. life is a learning lesson and sometimes things just, well, suck. and sometimes in high school, when your friend suddenly isn’t your friend anymore or you didn’t make the varsity team, it seems like never ending suckage, but it will end. and as much as i hate the saying, there is light at the end of the tunnel.and believe me if you think high school is awesome. college is ten fold better. no really. it is.
  9. …..ps. (see no 1) it doesn’t matter what everyone else is doing when it comes to.. yes, i’m going to say it out loud.. SEX. remember its only about you.  what you want to do, how far you want to take it, and every one else can.. well for lack of a better term STFU. and i mean every.letter.of.that.acronym. because when you do things, you can’t take them back. so make sure you’ve thought about them, the reprocussions and all that…. i’ll stop now. well actually, let’s just contiue this on to drinking and all that stuff too, hormones/boys/drinking all together is a serious recipes for trouble. see no 4.
  10. have.fun. no really, high school is so much fun. it’s about growth and trying new things, and meeting new people, and well, fun. (eyeliner optional) so get out there. try it. do it. who cares what other people think, drag those awesome friends from middle school with you to the dance, football game, school play. try it all and have fun doing it.

xoxo- mom

sunday, sunday…. oops … monday, monday.

here’s the truth:

1- i am both happy and sad that summer break is coming to an end.

2- the little and husband were “washing the car” yesterday.

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3- i am fairly certain i bought a vampire dog. no really, she sleeps in the cool darkness of the house all day, and then rises at night to…. bark at anything…. dig in the compost… knock over the trash… only to sleep all day. she may in fact be the bane of my existence. but i still love her.

4-i’m teaching the big and middle about budget. i went to the store on the 15th, and then refused to go again until the 1st. they were starving. there was NOTHING to eat in the house. ( please know, there was plenty to eat, just nothing they wanted to eat) so i went to the store on the 1st, told them how much i spent and said, i’m not going back until the 15th…. don’t take the bag of chips to your room and then leave them there where  the dogs get it, or they become stale, because i am not buying another one. if your 6 friends are here and they eat all the poptarts and chips, thats on you.. i’m not buying any more. i know it’s a little late to teach them..the idea of cause and effect, of spending money and not having more until.. say payday. but.. better late than never i suppose.

5-did i mention that i haven’t slept in countless nights because i have a… FREAKING VAMPIRE DOG?

6-oh i have an announcement. i’ve changed my pandora station.i know, you’ve been waiting with bated breath to see if i would ever leave air supply. and well i have.. for james taylor.  and while i was walking said vampire THIS came on. dear cat.. i’ve missed you.

7-yesterday, i asked someone who was visiting the neighbors, to slow down. considering he took the corner so fast that he squealed his tires as he stepped on the gas rounding the corner and they had no traction. i watched him as i walked out of the house to exercise the vampire.so when i happened upon him,  i totally asked him nicely, to slow down, his response- “keep walking fat bitch”, followed up with “you think you’re so cool you f*cking c**t” “you’re just a fn fat ass b ( and i’ve abbreviated here)  who don’t know nothing” and on and on and on. No really. what is wrong with people..did all that make him feel better? thankfully tho- the people he was visiting are gone. moved out. hasta la vista.

8- so this year i wanted to take 30 seniors. right now i’m at 15…. anyone know anyone? i’ve been handing out cards like crazy…. i must meet my goal, or at least come close trying.

9-my SIL is coming to hang with the big, middle, little, vampire, and old lady this weekend (while the husband and i drive away at the speed of light for our “first ever since the little” weekend get away). dare i disclose the nocturnal actives of the vampire to her?

10- i leave you with THIS. please, click on it. it.will.make.your.monday. i double dog dare you to click on it… do it.

~kml-w

Molly and the fam-

here’s the truth:

i am so sad that molly can be my little’s teacher fo.ev.er. like, just follow him from grade to grade.

the first time i photographed her girls i just followed them around, so arranging the whole family. well, nothing has changed in my family photography struggles…. but some of these, for all the wrong in them, i still love.

We’ll start with the girls-

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and then add mom

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and the whole fam

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but of course i have to save my favorite for last…. dear tyson, thanks for being an awesome subject, you handsome devil you…

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~kml-w