my middle…

Here’s the truth:

1- remember this. hard to believe that was two years ago….

but the things i love about my middle haven’t changed. still the same makeup-less, drama -less, but maybe a little more driven, awesome kid that she’s always been.



hey middle.. thanks for an awesome afternoon.


soooo, it’s thursday ….

Here’s the truth:

1- i’m sitting here listening to THIS and a little of THIS. yes. i know, frown if you will. but still one of the best evenings of my life with my middle.

2- i deleted this number. do i want to say it.. yes.. but i just haven’t gotten it right.. so maybe next blog. but

3-i saw a post about an act that is coming to a bar in town and suddenly i was like… 22 again. but then i got up from this computer and the 2.5 miles i ran this morning reminded me that i am more like 41….

4- THIS.

5- So THIS is making it’s way around the internet. ❤

6- i need THIS but can’t find it.. HELP!


7- Fun in the sun day…


8- THIS is on repeat…. go ahead, put it on repeat too….

9- Here’s to  lax playoffs…..and this kid and his team-


10- this weekend -parties and brunch yummm -oh and school is ALMOST out.. not sure if i’m ready….or not.






sunday’s mutterings….

here’s the truth:

1- so today is day 1 of spring. the snow has not melted from friday…. dear spring, please hurry.

2-yet another spring break and we are doing.. zilch. but honestly, i’m okay with that.

3-it’s official. my “mom” job has been well… lets just say i’m failing. no one has any clean clothes, and if they do they are piled in a huge heap in the chair in the master bedroom so they can’t find them. i’ve not made dinner in…well… days. i’ve also not had any suggestions when people ask, “what’s for dinner”. Last week i went Pinterest crazy and found all these awesome crockpot meals and ordered everything for them on my wal-mart shopper account. i then drove to wal-mart, they loaded my bags of Pinterest crockpot magic into my car. it was awesome. i came home ready to slay dinner for the week and my middle reminded me she doesn’t like tomatoes. yeah, so ummm, THIS and THIS and THIS.. yeah they all have tomatoes in them. so like a truly mature adult, i just pretended dinner didn’t exist for the week.


5- so the guy above was sick. people, if you haven’t volunteered in a classroom, you should. you should so you can see why sending your kid to school, even with a cold sucks for everyone else in the room. i’m not going to lie to you… i use to just send them on their way when i had a really busy, unforgiving job. but after being in the class room, i can tell you.. gross. and if one of them has it, no doubt the rest of them will get it. things i witnessed this year… coughing with no cover. no elbow, no hand, no.. anything. and they sit at tables, so you cough and it goes right to entire table. sneezing and the unsuspecting rush of snot from the nose…down the face, past the lips, almost hanging off the chin- and so the quick dart to the kleenex box begins, hand cupped. and i watch as they use 4 kleenex, throw them away and go sit at their table. no clean hands. nope, those snotty gross hands just run right back to the community table, and begin spreading the love. but my favorite of all time the best thing ever, the thing that makes me gag  every time i’m there, the pick. the pick and saunter over to the kleenex box- the pick saunter over get a kleenex and then…. wait for it… do they use the kleenex nope.. you know what they do.i’m not going to say it out loud because the mere thought of it make me gag. after they’ve, done what the do with said booger, they use the kleenex to dry of the finger.. that oh so gently placed that nasty you know what into their mouth. meanwhile i’ve had to excuse myself to dry heave somewhere. anyway, some how i feel like i’ve gotten off on a  tangent- returning to my orginal point- please know that just a runny nose, can be so. much.more.

6- for the last 6 months my acoustic guitar has had a broken string. when i finally made it to the guitar store 4 months ago, i totally put the strings, well, “someplace safe”. you know, the place you put things so you WON’T lose them, and then can never find them again. i found them! so for the last 6 day’s i’ve been torturing  the little with my mad guitar playing skills- ok so i have no mad guitar playing skills but i like to pretend i do. also he’s done hearing this  and this via my guitar.

7-shameless promoting of my big HERE. if you are from the greater colorado springs area, come, check it out. tickets available here.  they will also be HERE in April.   help us fundraise with out selling butter braids, or candy bar’s, or discount cards no one ever uses…..

8- i wish i could get into this. but i can’’s like at first i’m grooving, and digging it, and then she’ll make some weird noise, or scream and that will totally pull me out of my groove and then i’m like. done.

9- dear game of thrones. start already.

10-my brother had twins yesterday. i’m so darn excited for them. makes me want another one… psych. i mean kinda, no- no  i don’t. i mean it would be fun but, no- erase that thought…


Thursdays Thoughts-

here’s the truth:

1- i haven’t been using my camera near enough. which to be honest happens all the time during the winter.

2- THIS. because well… THIS.

3- i think next week… it will be random act of kindness week. who wants to join me? i need some goodness right now.

4-today i plugged in “women of country” into my pandora stations. amen people, pandora got something right. it was so awesome. everything from THIS and THIS to THIS and THIS. ❤

5-the little has been b boxing… like to every song. one day i hope to catch this on video- it’s too freaking funny, annnndddd at the same time i whisper to myself, please stop.

6- THESE. i must be ready for summer.

7- yes.. i am ready for summer, i neeeeeddddd summer.

8- Can someone please tell me why every holiday is about.. candy? no really? dear candy, go away, except those gum eggs, those can stay.

9-these are the last two photos i’ve taken….jan16-1-5IMG_1349

10- this weekend. i need to sleep. but i feel like no matter if i need sleep or not, it just doesn’t happen.  so….this weekend, i  need a beach and a fruity drink, oh who am i kidding.. this weekend.. laundry.


thursdays thoughts

here’s the truth:

i failed last year..  but… it’s a new year so,  here we go.

1- THIS. i can’t get enough. replay. i think despite the totally annoying repetition- there are lines of sheer brilliance that just, speak to me. how well do you know me? can you pick out my favorite line? i’ll tell you at the end.

2- i didn’t share my littles report card with him. does that make me bad? i’m totally struggling with it. pretty much, it says he’s a great kid. i tell him that all the time. his teacher does a wonderful job of making each child feel special, and despite his pushing my buttons, he’s a wonderful, kind, helpful kid at school. (except for art and p.e  where he apparently is only ok, but whatever.) i just don’t want him to get a big head and think he is perfect in school, because there is always work to do.always things to learn and places for improvement. hummmm.. yeah, i’m struggling with it.

3- the big moved to the basement, and suddenly.. i might actually like him. last year, with him, almost killed me off. but now he’s more… “here” if you will. it’s crazy because i made the decision to take him out of the “box”. you know the box of… kids should (insert societal dictated norm here)  you know be this..  have this gpa… this act score, so on and so forth. but i’m well just letting him be him. i can’t stress about him not conforming to fit in the box. can’t stress about college, or test or hell tomorrow for that matter. seems like i spent last year stressing about grades, and eligibility, and you know what.. i’m done with all that. hands washed of it. so what if he doesn’t go to….yale, or even CU for that matter. i finally just have to trust that it will all work out in the long run.he has to have some skin in the game, want it, not me wanting it for him. he does still have certain expectation he has to meet, and goals, and yes i still parent him.but i don’t stress, and he and i, well we do much better now.

4-James Corden… Carpool Karaoke. Have you watched? Oh well, I have. EVERY.SINGLE.ONE. ❤ ( i might have just watched a few again)

5- and while i’m confessing things… at the sweet age of 40 i suddenly have bieber fever. yup. it’s confirmed.

6-so i started this blog on wednesday hoping to have it done by thursday… umm yeah, today is friday, oops. how about this.. today is actually monday, ummm yeah.. i gotta get my poop in a group.

7-  this weekend i binge watched the final season of i also bawled like a baby in like, every episode. so good.

8-confession, i still have not seen star wars. no really… that needs to happen. like pronto.

9-“the rest of the world was black and white, we were in screaming color”

~ “we were built to fall apart, then back together”

~ “when the sun came up you were looking at me”

10- i also love this. like LOVE. this kid is so freaking awesome.

11- these are my, “i’m going to vegas and you’re not flowers”…


12- on sunday, i was putzing around the house.. picking up, but not really cleaning, and the little and his dad were messing around in the other room, i had my phone on kidzbop pandora.. the little loves to listen to music, you know, the standards… what ever is on the radio. all the sudden i hear THIS. i had to stop dead. no way kidzbop pandora would pick that song. score one for the hubby, way to introduce good music to the little. although i’m not sure how impressed he was, i was loving it.

13- this weekend…yeah. BRONCO’s. here we go!


Wayyyy to close to Christmas-

Here’s the truth:

1- It’s way to close to Christmas. I’ve wrapped nothing. I’ve not really kept track of what I’ve purchased. I’ve just not prepared.

2- Like clock work every year, in the car when THIS comes on, someone turns it off. Like, do they not know that Christams without the Carpenters is.. well, just not Christmas?

3- And I’m going to say this because if I don’t, well… it just wouldn’t be my proper Christmas Blog with out it. CHRISTMAS CARDS CAN NOT BECOME EXTINCT. No really. Of all the traditions that go by the wayside this can not be one. People, get out there and mail your freaking cards.

4- This year to entertaintain the little, my oh so daring husband, ventured off to ToysRus and got the “BIG BOOK OF TOYS” and then handed that, a pair of scissors, glue, and a spiral note book to the little and said make a book for Santa. Ummmmm, yeeeaaaahhhhh. Days and days of cutting and gluing and cutting and gluing and well you get it and the it was declared DONE. So the little runs out the mailbox, puts the spiral binder into the mail box and brushes his hands. Off to santa the big book of lukes wishes goes! So now I am trying to figure out how in the hell to get the book out of the mailbox, before the mail comes, with a 5 year old staring out of the window. And I look at the clock and the mail comes in like 4 mins. AHHHHHHHH. Thankfully his attention span is as small as his bladder, so he leave his perch to pee and I run like a mad, silent stalker woman to the mail box to retrieve the FREAKING book, dash upstairs throw it in a dresser drawer that has, oh wait, I’ve been looking of those shorts for like, ever.. anyway and dash back downstairs, like nothing happened as the toilet flushes and the mail lady pulls up. The long and short of this story is that now, when the little see’s something at walt-mart, he’s like “oh I’m getting that box of uglyiest little pet shops,” and I’m like, “oh are you”, and he’s like “yup, I put it in my book” FUUUUDDGGEEEEE he now thinks everything in that damn book will be delivered by santa. So looking into his eyes, to further perpetuate the “santa” lie I tell him, ” Dude, santa can’t bring you everything in your book or he won’t have room for other kids’ stuff. And remember, there are kids that don’t have as many things as you and santa is their only hope to get some cool things”. Not sure that sank in.


5- For those who don’t know, my sister finally made it back to good ol’ colorado. Know what that means… the little wants to hang with her boys like, EVERY waking hour, of every free moment. The other night, he came home say, 3:30 ish. At 5:45 he said he was going to bed, and when I went to check on him at 6:15 he was out cold. Dear Nephews, thanks for tiring him out, because of you I was actually able to sit down and watch Interstellar. Start.TO.Finish. Here’s my shout out to tri-tip from HERE. Go get some, NOW.

6-WHY. oh why are spiced gum drops so freaking good. I can’t seem to leave the store with out a bag.

7- Because i bought the little dog, who’s time clock wakes me up at 5:45 I’ve been blessed with seeing the sunrise. Man, that’s one of those things people take for granted. For a moment the world is still and the sky is a medley of pink and orange and blue and it’s freaking awesome.

8-speaking of the little dog. my tree is skirtless. no really. i have a skirt, but every time i put it down, she grabs is, runs outside with it and makes it a bed.

9- dear walmart shopper. i love you. LIFE.CHANGING. no really, order on line, select a pick up time, drive up, they load groceries, you drive away. mind.blown.

10- this week well, you know, merry merry and all that stuff!



friday’s findings-

here’s the truth

1-i haven’t turned the heat on in my house. currently, as i type this, i can not feel my fingers or my toes.

2- THIS. i love it. can’t get enough.go ahead, click on it. fall in love too.

3- people, getting up and getting dressed and putting on makeup and going to work, yeah, ummm the first week it was cool. 4 weeks in and i’m totally over it.

4- do i dare mention the broncos.. no really. totally mixed feelings.


6- So, i’ve been totally stressed lately. Like everything has stressed me out. money, kids, dogs, money, health. and i’ve realized that all those things are causing me not to sleep well, so now i’m cranky and stressed and tired. and i’ve been working hard and finding small things to really focus on. small things that normally i wouldn’t notice them, and seeing the good in the little things. i ran across THIS on Facebook. i’ve watched it 3 times now. i mean life is hard, but that life, i can’t imagine. so i think i’ve finally come to the realization that without the lows we would never, ever, recognize the highs. and something so small, as a piece of chocolate.. well that made all the difference in the world.  so i’m going to keep on looking for those small things…

7- i know i did not see SNOW in the forecast? snow. booooooooo.

8- i wanted to add a picture here. but yeah… ummm they want more money from me, the blog people that is, so they won’t let me upload any more data. jerks. so here’s this one again…

mr (1 of 1)-2


10- this time next week…. my sister will be here. forever. boom.